Month: October 2016

I chose money over family this week, maybe for the first time in my life. Consciously, anyway. It was a bit of an experiment. I don’t feel smart or responsible or pleased that I took a job instead of going on vacation to see my family this Thanksgiving. I feel depraved. It happened very quickly. I did six auditions this week and i wasn’t getting callbacks, which I know is just a roll of the dice, but my pride will also tell you I usually get called back for SOMETHING. By the end of that string of opportunities the dates…

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Two boys trot down the sidewalk towards me. They are ahead of other kids who are still spilling out of the red brick school house and racing to the playground to play soccer. Little and big are heading home. Blue back pack, red back pack, solemn round cheeks still chubby. Identical jet black hair cuts, no nonsense. Their close cropped fringes completely disregard any Justin Bieber side sweep and all Anime heroes. These brothers have serious hair and serious faces. Little is maybe seven and big is maybe nine. The eldest boy takes a very quick peek once they pass…

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I am up at 2am tonight thinking once again about that friend who has decided to stop talking to me entirely. It’s been about two years now. I’ve known her since she was a chubby cheeked toddler. I can still see her in her pink snowsuit. We could always pick up right where we left off. I don’t think it’s personal. She just – can’t. I miss her terribly. No one is like her. She is magnificent. I anguish over not knowing how to do anything about her pain. I pray. I send out a little hello once in a…

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